My name is Joshua Proby minister, author, speaker, my life is not one that is full of glitz and glamour, but one full of truth. At the tender ages of ten and eleven I was molested. It was at this point that my life as I once knew it changed. I became very closed off, the environment that I was in was not healthy. I was mental, emotionally, on top of physically abused. I never knew my father and my mother for many years struggled with addiction. Before I even knew the meaning of pain, I was engulfed in it, before I knew the effect of depression, I was drowned in it. Growing up I was troubled my position in life was always viewed from the lenses of that little boy who was molested, however, the more I grew, the more pain I felt. I sheltered the pain for so long that it became toxic. Feeling like I had no voice, I developed a mindset that "if I was hurt you should hurt as well".
At the age of 22, I was charged with 1st-degree burglary and sentenced to 12 yrs. in prison. At this point, my family and loved ones did not know how I took such a turn. It was not until I was 31 yrs — Old that I opened up about being molested. So here I am a boy who almost lost his natural life when I was hit by a car at the tender age of nine only to turn around and have my innocence taken from me and this all before the age of twelve. During my incarceration, I was placed in solitary confinement for two years — a room that is known bigger than a bathroom where I was allowed to come out only one hr — a day. It was in this cold and dark place that I found my life. It was the first time in my life that I could not run from my pain, I could not blame anyone for my pain. It was in that moment that I found the bible verse Psalms Ch. 46:10 "Be still and know I am God".
From that point, my life took many turns. Many may say what makes what you went through so special? Absolutely "NOTHING." My story is not about being special but about changing people’s lives. I can stand today in my truth and help those who feel like giving up hope. For many years I felt like giving up, but by the Grace of God, I was able to stand. Everything I lost it was restored from my children to my mother who is now in the ministry as well. So, if you ask me what makes me unique, it is my God-given ability to not just speak to people but to have an impact in their life that leads to change.